Thursday, January 16, 2014

This Was Coy. He Will Be Missed

.:We're Too Young To Be Writing Eulogies For Each Other...:.

All around me are familiar faces

It never gets easier.

You and I met for the first time during the 2007 Emerging Influential Bloggers Night. It was also the first night I met AJ Matela. At first, I was amused by your video and video editing. Then, I was utterly mystified when you proved how good you were during that Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf event where we were part of the same team, making a video together on the spot.

Worn out places, worn out faces

Then 2008 happened. Laughs And Gasps. You put together a video of all the subliminal messages Jay and I dropped to make our finale happen, and you had to do it before the finale actually happened. There wasn't a single person I could have thought capable of that but you.

Bright and early for the daily races

But your legend as a vlogger, if not the vlogger, just kept on growing. It was always a pleasure to see you at blogging events, and as the years went by, we always would keep in touch here and there. It was always a pleasure to see you, as more and more new faces poured into the blogosphere.

Going nowhere, going nowhere

As I slowly found myself disillusioned with the notion of the blogosphere, you remained one of the positive points, although it had far more to do with who you were, than it had anything to do with your blog. I always respected you. And I always valued what little time we had to spend with each other.

Their tears are filling up the glasses

But I just thought we'd have more time to spend. I mean, who thinks about these things happening to any of us so soon?

No expression, no expression

So I'm sorry if there's no eloquent way to say I wish you didn't have to go just yet. I'm sorry that I can't craft this weaving verbal tapestry of praise and honor for a friend who absolutely deserves it, in life and beyond. But inasmuch as I want to drown in apologies, this isn't about me. It's about you. And you were a great person who I may have spent so little time with, but you were a great person who made every moment count.

Hide my head, I wanna drown my sorrow

Sometimes, I wonder where life would have taken any of us if none of us ever discovered blogging. In the end, all I see is how much better life has been knowing you were a part of it. And I take small comfort in the fact that no matter where you are now, you will always remain to be a part of it. Those blog posts won't unwrite themselves, those Tweets won't untweet themselves, nor would those YouTube videos ever unrecord themselves.

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

I hope wherever you are now, you are at peace. I can't thank you enough, and I can't write hard enough to express the profound sense of loss I feel right now. I guess I never expected to have to write a eulogy for a friend like you so soon.

This was Coy: a great friend, a visionary, a guy who knew how to laugh at himself, and someone who reminds me why I am grateful to have been a part of this blogging community.

This is how he will remain with me for the rest of my life.

I'll see you soon enough, Coy. All of us will. In the meantime, I'm going to miss you while you're gone.

                                                                                    from Fritz Tentativa

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad.
The dreams in which I am dying are the best I ever had.
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very, very mad world.