Truth be told, I'm lying.
Last week, during videoke, this song came up with a vengeance. The ultimate "take that" song in my book, this instant classic by the All-American Rejects just really encapsulates the kind of sentiments you wish would hit the people who have turned their backs on you, even if in reality, it's probably less like this and more like "Break Even" by The Script. They're sleeping well, while you're awake in the middle of the night. It is what it is.
But hey, who's to say a little bit of wish fulfillment isn't in order? I mean, obviously, if you're still hurting, the least you can do is pretend in your head that they're hurting just as much, or maybe even more, right? Of course, it's probably just all in your head, but whatever. That's just how it works.
It's a really catchy song that sounds very upbeat. Once you start listening to the lyrics, though, it paints a pretty embittered picture that says, "You happened to all the nice guys! Now, I hope it gives you hell." I think the sentiments, while harsh, definitely ring true to a large extent. When a heart doesn't break even, I guess you can't fault one of them to end up being rather Bitter Ocampo about the whole thing, eh?
With a year filled with burning bridges, I can't help but feel a pang of regret over the losses that have recently come. But then, I realize how little of value I was to them for them to ditch me so casually in the first place, and I guess it makes me feel just a little bit less guilty about responding to them in kind.
I hope he knows you told me that you'd always be there for as long as I needed you. Because really, I never stopped needing you, yet you're nowhere to be found.
I hope you realize that I took all your abuse for years, and you obviously can't take it the way you dished it out.
I hope you aren't oblivious to the fact that "betraying a friend" trumps "acting childish" any day of the week. This may not be oppression Olympics, but the latter surely doesn't whitewash the former.
So if you happen t be reading this post, hope it gives you hell. I really, really hope it does.