Feeling Generous Again...

You want to watch?

Well, ask me.

I have three tickets.

And make sure to meet me by Monday, because the premiere is in Megamall on Monday night. :)

Just a thought.

.:Today's LSS:.

I can't help but feel thi ssong just really hits the spot...

Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda
by Brian McKnight

Mmm, mmm
Alright, yeah
Listen

Baby, can you put them bags down
Just wait hold on for a minute
Gotta say a couple things before you go
Even though I know that we're finished

I don't want you to leave without knowin'
Just where I'm comin' from, babe
I just wanna say I made a big mistake
And now I gotta face the fact that I

Shoulda been a better man
The kinda man that you needed
Woulda been better off
If I done right by you

I coulda done this, I coulda done that
But I know I can't go back
'Cause now it's just too late
I'm sayin' shoulda woulda coulda, yeah

I can tell by the look on your face
You ain't tryin' to hear what I'm sayin'
Maybe you done heard all of this before
To her this ain't no game that I'm playin'

This may be the last chance I ever have
To talk to you before you go
So I gotta say I made I big mistake
Girl, you know it's killin' me that I

Shoulda been a better man
The kinda man that you needed
Woulda been better off
If I done right by you

I coulda done this, I coulda done that
But I know I can't go back
'Cause now it's just too late
I'm sayin' shoulda woulda coulda, yeah

I should have done my best to love you, baby
I should have placed no one above you
And now it's killin' me more than you know
Letting you, that's why I...girl, I know that I shoulda

Shoulda been a better man (Coulda been a better man to you, baby)
The kinda man that you needed (Shoulda been there for
you every time you needed me)
Woulda been better off (Every time you called me)
If I done right by you (And you know that I coulda done this)

I coulda done this, I coulda done that (Coulda done that, yeah)
But I know I can't go back (You know I can't go back, baby)
'Cause now it's just too late (All I know need to know
is, girl, all I need to know is)
I'm sayin' shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Do you love me
like you used to, baby)

I know I shoulda, yeah
I know I woulda, yeah (All the things I coulda done)
I know I coulda been a better man (All the things I shoulda done)
Said I shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Sayin' shoulda
woulda coulda, yeah)

I know I shoulda, yeah (Yeah)
I know I woulda, yeah (Cooulda woulda shoulda)
I know I coulda been a better man
Said I shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Yeah)

.:Star Circle Quest Is Back:.

And now, it's called "Pinoy Big Brother: Teen Edition".

Think about it. Those guys are there, doing activities and whatnot, and being voted upon by the fans. What I think underscores the notion that this is going to be another Star Circle batch is that they seem to have gotten kids who look like matinee idols. These are kids who would definitely have a shot at showbiz if they were given a chance, and the hype machine going on for PBB:TE is definitely pointing in that direction.

It'd be fairly interesting how this new season pans out. Hopefully, we don't see anything particularly controversial come out, unlike the way it happened in the first season... heh.

.:Non-Happening:.

Virtually nothing has been happening in my life lately, as the only things I've been up to would be going to work, and going back home and going to the arcades. It's been soooo boring...

I need a change of pace. Sigh...

Yeesh...

.:When Every Facet Of My Life Gets Shot To Hades...:.

No LSS for today. Right now, all I know is that every single aspect of my life has been going to the dogs.

All thanks to you.

Can't sleep, can't think straight, can't do jack. Can't even work decently.

And people wonder why my blogging has been cruddy as of late...

Everything's crumbling apart, and I don't know where to go from here...

You just pulled the rug from under me. And now, I don't even know how to redeem myself.

Utter Depression...

Sometimes, there are moments in my life where I just want to die in my sleep.

This is one of them.

Feeling Generous...

.:Anyone Who Wants To Watch Slither?:.

I have two tickets to give away for the WAVE premier of "Slither" this Tuesday night, in Megamall or Galleria, I believe.

If you want to watch them, feel free to contact me so we can meet up and I can give you the tickets. I won't be going to the premiere, so you can take a date, a friend, or whoever along with you.

Thanks, jabronis. Happy weekend.

Boo...

.:Today's LSS:.

A positive message to everyone who can hear it. I've never been really known to be a quitter in life, and that hasn't ever really changed...

Win
by Brian McKnight

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I’ve been down this road before

I’ll never quit
I’ll never lay down
See I promised myself I would never let me down

Chorus:
So I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fade
I’ll just get up and try again
Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for a place ashore
I’m gonna win

Won’t stop me now
There’s still a ways to go
Some way somehow
Whatever it takes I know

I’ll never quit
I’ll never go down
I’ll make sure they remember my name 100 years from now

(Chorus)

When it’s all said and done
My once in a lifetime won’t be back again
Now is the time, for me to stand
Here is my chance, that’s why I

(Chorus)

.:It's Not What You Think!!!:.

Look at the picture below... what do you see?

Now, take a closer look...

You sure about what you're seeing? Or are you actually curious to find out what you're really looking at?


Well, look no further...

See? It's not what you think!!!

In any case, to find out more about the so-called "Gatorade Conspiracy", click HERE, if you're so inclined. :P

.:Feel-Good Friday Radio Recollections:.

Gia and I had a fairly funny show today, as we just kept on throwing jokes in rapid succession over the topic for the morning, "What is your comfort food?"

Apparently, the most common answer turned out to be "chocolates".

Gia and I have an excellent rapport, particularly with how our dialogue can flow with each other so freely as of late. The main kicker that I really noticed is that our sense of humor works pretty well when I start going off with the double entendre here and there... it just really works... heh.

I think it especially worked when we were playing the song "I'll Make Love To You"...

Kel: Now, that won't just make you feel good. It'll make you feel goooooodddd...

We also loved poking fun by using song titles to tell a story, like "Four Seasons Of Loneliness", "The Man I Was With You", "I Can Never Take The Place Of Your Man", and so forth... every song really tells a story, huh?

By the end of the program, we've pretty much come up with a ton or two of ideas already for new segments. Pro wrestling, anime, urban legends, heck, even poetry. Let's hope the ideas turn out well, really...

.:Found On A Tekken Board:.

"Help! I can't beat my friend's Wang!"

I don't know about you, but he could've rephrased that question a bit better, couldn't he?

For the uninformed, Wang is actually a character in Tekken who has appeared, I believe, in Tekken 2, Tekken Tag, and Tekken 5. Pretty okay character, though I never bothered learning him at all...

.:Omigosh! Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!!!:.

So a listener was listening to Gia and I talk about food, and next thing I knew, she and two of her friends dropped by the station to hand us food.

Thank you very much for the kind, kind gesture, Sugar! you have no idea how much it meant to us, as we were starving and exhausted at the station already...

Oops. Belated Post, But By Just A Day...

.:Today's LSS:.

For people reading this blog/lj for the first time, it's customary of me to start off the key post for the day with lyrics to a song that means a lot for me at the particular day...

Today, I guess this should really hit a nerve with some people. And I'm quite certain there's nothing ambigious about the song's message.

I'll Always Love You
by Michael Johnson

Standin' by my window
List'nin' for your call
Seems I really miss you after all

Time won't let me
Decide thoughts to myself
I'd just like to let you know
I wish I'd never let you go

And I'll always love you
Deep inside this heart of mine
I do love you
And I'll always need you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will love you

Wish you'd never left me
But love's a mystery
You can break a heart so easily

The days and nights we knew
How much I feel for you
Time has come for me to see
How much your love has meant to me

And I'll always love you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will love you

Time, like a river, keeps on rollin' right on by
Nothin' left for me to do
So I watch the river rise

And I'll always love you
Deep inside this heart of mine
I do love you
And I'll always need you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will
I'll still, I will, love you

.:Because Snape Is Worth It!:.

Look at that lovely hair!

.:Gasp!:.

So I actually went to bed at five in the afternoon yesterday, after having had fairly little sleep over the past few days due to I-Blog and such.

Naturally, I didn't set the alarm. It's not like I expected to sleep all the way to my boardwork the very next day, which was two in the afternoon, anyways...

Next thing I knew, I was up at four in the morning. Can you believe it? That has got to be way too weird... yeesh...

Despite the fact that it meant I would miss all but one hour of my radio show, I still went to WAVE, anyways. I still have more work to handle after the program, after all.

.:Yesterday's Deal:.

It was a Waveback Wednesday yesterday, so I played a bit of "Stand By Me". I proudly announced that "Andrew E is in da house", as my partner, Gia, cringed over the quip.

We had a nice topic for our show yesterday. Gia and I were asking people "What is the one thing you can do better than anybody else?"

You know that thing you really like?

I taught that to your girlfriend. :P

I'm kidding, I'm kidding!

The Freaking Mudda Hugga Is Back...

.:THE I-BLOG 2 REPORT:.



.:Today's LSS:.

I'm listening to it as I write this post...

Light And Shade
by Fra Lippo Lippi

He will pain the light and shades
The colours and the trees
He will climb the steepest hill
Believing what he sees
He will lay down on the ground
Beneath the old oak tree
He will sleep forever
If you try to set him free

Chorus:
Sail on the wings of a cloud
Where to, well nobody knows
And cry, cry if you want them to see
Die every day to be free
Be proud to wear the colours that you call your own
Be loud, speak out when the world to know
Be strong, hold the flame for everyone to see
Be weak, if you want to love.

He will paint the endless sea.
A mystery to me
He will reach out for the sun,
Not dreaming what he sees
He will fall down on his knees
Angel touching ground
Takes him to the other side
Sweet love is coming down.

(Chorus)

.:Oh, Yes. I. Am. BACK.:.

My blogging has taken a hit for a looooong time, but thanks to I-Blog 2, that's going to change. Maybe it won't happen overnight, but I'm making bloody sure that the quality (and quantity) of posts for me would pick up once again...

.:Got There... Late:.

Anyways, as I promised to talk about I-Blog 2 and what happened there, let me start by saying that I will just show pictures of the event when I can finagle a few here and there from my friends in Bloglandia.

In any case, I got to the gathering late. I had work until twelve noon, though I cut twenty minutes and left the office at around a quarter to twelve. When I got to the Law building, "the infamous one" was actually talking in one room, and I walked in, armed with a PSP in the event that I found his speech not to my liking. The damned thing came in handy...

You see, setting aside my bias against him, the "the infamous one" actually has something going for him. Prior to this moment, everytime he opened his mouth within ten feet of me, he was going to elicit a reaction from me.

Sure, the reaction was almost always not a favorable one, but a reaction, nonetheless. He had controversy in spades. He could've used it to enhance what he had to say.

Instead, the guy practically bored me to tears. Seriously. I don't know how else to say it. I was frankly disappointed, but hey, no big deal. I just left the room and started talking to Sean, Jonas, and Charo.

Now, the conversations were mainly aimless, and we saw a very dazed and confused Kathy D (Dagnabit, forgot her URL... so much for turning over an old leaf and inserting hyperlinks to every blogger I mention by name...) walk out of the room where "the infamous one" was not yet done talking, despite the presence of an explicit 15-minute time limit per speaker. Typical. Heh.

.:The Second Wave:.

So lunchtime was composed of a few Brokebacking jokes aimed at me and Sean, as well as comments over my new PSP videos that I defend to be in my PSP mainly for its music, more than anything else (Okay, fine. So it's not safe for work if I showed you the clip... :P). Afterwards, we stepped into the room again to catch Dean Alfar deliver his speech, which was not nearly as striking as his speech last year that gave birth to this.

Do note be afraid of tomorrow, though. I'm sure a new webring based on his speech will come along the way as well...

Jonas was pretty amusing during his turn, all the same. I'm a sucker for his webcomics, so seeing his stuff and the other comics here and there was pretty fun. It's a bit weird to see him by himself, though. Oh, well. No biggie.

So during the open forum, unfortunately for the other two speakers, only Dean got questions. Jonas was lucky he had a mental lapse and conducted his own open forum after his speech, though.

Instead of asking Dean a question, when it was my turn to address him, I just reiterated the thanks of the entire Suman Sa Latik Webring in giving us inspiration to carry out writing no matter how arduous, no matter how mundane. I know I was scraping the bottom of the barrel when I went for Knock-Knock jokes about suman, but hey, no biggie.

Sean was best blogger of 2005. I had that honor in 2003. Dean has inspired us in his own inimitable way to really break out and write in a way we have never expected ourselves to be able to do. Of course, I still don't have a single Palanca award to show for it, but whaddaheck.

So yeah... as you can tell, I didn't ask a question at all. Instead, I thanked him, and then took the opportunity to plug my radio show on WAVE. I didn't think plugging my blog was allowed anymore, so I skirted around that.

Hades, I even gave away premiere tickets from WAVE just to drive home the point... heh.

.:The Third Salvo:.

This time, I picked the other room not only because Charo was a speaker there, but also because Podcasting never appealed to me thus far. So the idea of "monetizing" my blog was definitely more attractive to me, albeit rather daunting.

I'll gloss over the details of the speeches, and just say that they were very... informative.

.:Wrapping Up:.

Lemme just mention that this guy who was doing the impersonations while mentioning the various raffle winners was hilarious! He did FPJ, Erap, FVR, Mark Logan, and even Mike Enriquez. And he did all voices flawlessly. That was a spectacle in and by itself that should be the best unofficial highlight of the event... heh.

Congratulations to the people who have made the second I-Blog a blazing success! See you jabronis for the third one. :)

.:After The Fact...:.

Dominique played catch-up and showed up around two or so in the afternoon at the summit, and he, along with Jelo, tagged along with Clair, Charo, and myself to eat dinner at Mang Jimmy's.

The food there is still as good as ever: Tapa Mix, Lechon Kawali, and Sisig are definitely great items, but the fact that their rice is no longer limitless is a crying shame.

Still, the food is great, and we individually shelled out less than a hundred bucks each for a very filling meal and very engaging conversations about Jelo's alleged membership in the Scottish clan McGroen.

After the sumptuous dinner and the very awkward questions of whom Clair/Dom would rather sleep over with between me and Charo (They both chose Charo... am I that scary? :P), we went our separate ways home.

.:DOMestic Violence:.

So sue me, I wanted to have a snazzy title about the MRT ride home... :P

In any case, Dom and I spent the trip back home talking about a lot of... *very* interesting things. What struck me the most was how he kept on joking about how most of us seemed to have overreacted over the recent events in his life, particularly with Chicken Little (aka Ranulf) running around and telling everyone about what has happened...

When the discussion was reversed, I realized that my coping skills leave a lot to be desired in contrast... yeesh.

Ahahaha...

.:The Rock In His Next Movie Roles...:.

You just have to see this... the man is perfect for these roles, I tell ya! Perfect!

Can you smell what the Submariner is cooking, foolish peon?


Layin' some Shazamdown on your roody pooh candy-@$$!

Past Easter...

.:HUWAT?!?:.

Didn't realize I-Blog 2 is going to be tomorrow already...

Anyone who can give me directions how to get to UP College Of Law? I'll be coming from WAVE, and I leave WAVE around 12 noon.

Sigh... had I realized that 18 was a Tuesday, I would've taken a leave of absence for today... yeesh.

.:Today's LSS:.

Rob Thomas is the man...

Lonely No More
by Rob Thomas

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
Words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

Chorus:
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore

Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can we just try

(Chorus)

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

(Chorus)

I don't wanna be lonely anymore
I don't wanna be lonely anymore
I don't wanna be lonely anymore...

.:Now I Remember Why I Didn't Want To Go Back Home Anymore...:.

... I seriously cannot stand being around these people for anything longer than twenty-four hours. Seriously.

This was a pretty long weekend, but I sure as Hades needed to put up with it, as it's definitely better than slaving over work for as long as I seem to have been doing lately. And the food is free until Sunday. That should count for something as well... heh.

Baguio's nice at this time of the year. It's definitely not as hot as it would be in Manila, and my asthma isn't acting up this time (so far), so I guess I should feel a lot better about that fact. It's just that I've been here in Baguio for so long that it does get a bit boring whenever I'm here. Ah, well. No big deal, regardless.

.:Baguio Discoveries:.

The first thing you have to realize whenever the family goes to Baguio is that my mom is cooking. Well, being the host of “Makuha ka sa Tikim”, you can be sure that she definitely knows how to cook. So she took with her some fish, beef steak, adobo, and binagoongan, and from there, we had multiple dishes that spanned Thursday to Sunday.

My mom has this incredible talent of recycling food to a point that it becomes an entirely different dish. For instance, the beef steak was seen as plain beef steak, then beef steak inside sticky rice balls, then beef with mushroom and brocolli. The adobo was never seen as plain adobo. It was served as Thai rice, salted fish with adobo rice, meat for binagoongan, and so forth. You can tell that we never got tired of the fact that only four viands were actually employed for four days with two meals each day.

This was also the first time in years that I didn't have an asthma attack while up here. That's a good sign for me, I suppose.

Funny story about Mario, though, as he was in Baguio as well, and I had him tag along for dinner with us last Saturday...

So Mario was kind of embarrassed, and the notorious manifestation of that is when he tries to chat up a storm with virtual strangers, i.e., people he's met only once, such as my entire family. So he tries to lecture my mom about cooking (I already told you how well my mom cooks. You think she needs any? =P), then he talks about his woes over food, as he tries to save a lot of money, then he goes ahead and lectures about cooking some more, involving rice fried with olive oil then topped with ketchup (Which my mom pointed out to me actually uses tomato paste, not ketchup...)...

Then while the conversation was at this pace, with his frenetic mannerisms and all...

... he tells everyone he has to go.

The man didn't even wind down the conversation before going. Jericho's (My baby brother.) jaw dropped. Lol.

So in any case, my parents didn't think Mario was gay, but they sure found it amusing how someone so embarrassed could talk up a storm that way.

And then they understood him better when I told them the story about Kathy driving Mario home and Mario's infamous attempt at small talk...

.:San Kilo Bridge:.

There's a certain eatery in Tarlac, I believe, where they challenge you to cross a very narrow bridge and get a kilo of fish cooked the way you like it. I wish I had a picture, although maybe I can find one online or something.

So in any case, this bridge is fairly long and narrow. It's wide enough for only one of your feet, and what made it difficult to cross was not that it was narrow. Heck, you could crawl your way there if that were the problem...

The problem was that in addition to the bridge being narrow, you had to step over several gigantic shells strategically placed all over the bridge. These shells were spaced apart just so narrowly so you can try to step between them. It's not that hard just yet, as I got that far when I made a pre-trial to see if I should attempt to cross.

By the way, you'd fall into their 6-9 feet deep fishpond if you ever slipped up in your attempt to cross the bridge.

When I asked the waiter about crossing, I was promptly informed of two things that made me back out of it right away...

1. You had to cross the bridge, then go back to where you started from, ergo, you cross the bridge twice.
2. You had to carry a bucket of water while headed there.

The bucket of water, me and my brother correctly guessed, would throw your balance askew. It would actually have been potentially easier to cross with two buckets, but with one, it definitely wasn't going to be easy...

Needless to say, I backed out. But next time, I will make sure to make an attempt.

.:The Tacsiyapo Wall:.

In the same floating restaurant, there was this place called the Tacsiyapo Wall, where people threw plates and other stuff at the walls to release their anger. There were loads of marks on the wall, indicating people you might want to throw at but instead take your frustrations out on the wall. The price was about 45 bucks a plate.

From “mother-in-law” to “corrupt politicans” to “ex-girlfriends”, it was pretty amusing to see people yell “Tacsiyapo!!!” then promptly toss a plate at the wall.

For those with bigger issues that plates couldn't settle, televisions are also available to chuck at the wall for 1,300 bucks each.

.:Celebrity Sighting:.

The restaurant is owned by Rod Evangelista, owner of Singing Cooks and Waiters, Atbp., among other restaurants. In any case, what is amusing about this is that we saw Jericho Rosales and Rod's niece, Heart Evangelista, over there. Hmmm... Heart actually looked hot from where I was standing, but that's because she wasn't talking yet. ;P

.:Do I Know Where I'm Going To?:.

I needed the respite from everything that's been going on in my life lately. Work, for one, has been extremely hectic for me, and I frankly feel like I'd just want to leave WAVE already the moment a remotely better option comes along for me. There's Unilever, maybe even teaching in Japan if I finally decide to just go in that direction, and there are still a ton of other options that I'm quite certain would prove more financially and possibly more professionally rewarding than what I'm doing with WAVE so far.

WAVE has made me feel, ever since I moved to the graveyard timeslot, that I'm little more than a second-class citizen. One of the main gripes Gia and I had with them was the fact that they left the both of us out of the audio-visual presentation. It was a glaring omission for them to forget about us when they brought up the tandems on their programming. A glaring omission that has happened more than once.

It's hard to give your all to a company that makes you feel very unappreciated, and I don't just mean that financially. As a tandem, Gia and I have come a long way and have quite a noticeable following despite the fact that we're in an ungodly timeslot. Regardless, what does that mean to them, huh? Apparently, because they're all asleep and have no damned idea what's going on with the show, they'll just go ahead and ignore the significant amount of people who actually enjoy the graveyard shift. How do you intend to continue feeling the least bit motivated with that kind of very tepid recognition of your efforts?

It's been close to two years, and I know for a fact that I have improved my craft significantly from when I first walked into the station. There is no question that I am a lot better now than I was when I started with WAVE. I also think that it's fairly obvious that I have exerted a lot of initiative on my part to make sure that they don't just overlook the things I can do for the company, but after all has been said and done, they still casually ignore that fact. It's getting tiresome, and the only reason I'm still with WAVE is because I don't have a more stable job to go to, and out of courtesy to my boss, who thinks I can do a good job with my latest endeavor, which still obviously doesn't pay enough...

I have griped about my work a lot in the past, but I think my patience with this company is already hitting a breaking point. Two years of waiting has definitely not been getting me anywhere, and I know that being an on-air jock doesn't really last long enough for me to sit it out and wait for things to get better. I have a lot of things I need to accomplish, and I really am beginning to understand more and more that WAVE, no matter how much I like the actual job, may not necessarily be my ticket to fulfillment.

Sigh...

.:Typing (With One Hand?!?) From Mario's Office In U.P. Baguio...:.

Yep. Just the two of us here. Ain't that sweet? ;)

.:It's A Black Saturday...:.

... and the one thing I'm banking on has not happened at all.

I have a fairly okay update once I'm back, I suppose.

But for now, let's just have an uber-quick post here.

.:Willard Cheng?:.

Holy crap. He's a reporter in ABS-CBN now? Wow.

I feel so small...

.:It's Cold Here...:.

Ah, well. I'll live. At least, my asthma isn't acting up.

But I guess I really just miss certain things I used to be able to count on happening on a daily basis. So much for those things now... one can only hope.

.:To My Best Friend...:.

I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you.

I'm not entirely sure if you're coping well with what's going on right now, but whether or not, my prayers go out to you...

Please always remember that your friends do love you a lot, and at this point, come only third to your family and to Him in that department....

I'm sorry I didn't get to make my sentiments heard sooner. I got online only today...

Awww....

.:Today's LSS:.

How true...

Without You
by Mariah Carey

No I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can’t forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it’s only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

Chorus:
I can’t live
If living is without you
I can’t live
I can’t give anymore
I can’t live
If living is without you
I can’t give
I can’t give anymore

Well I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

(Chorus)

.:Poof:.

And so I shall be gone for a while.

I doubt you'd miss me, I doubt you'd care.

I just thought you should know.

If you ever need me, you know how to get to me.

In the meantime, my prayers go out to you... it's going to be cold where I'll be. REALLY cold...

.:Unbelievable...:.

Major league baseball for the PSP is definitely good. Sure, the season mode is nowhere near as anal retentive as the franchise mode of the console version, but everything else about the game deserves heaps and heaps of praise...

Expect me to write some game reviews of this and other games I have for the PSP when I manage to find the time... heh.

As of today, though, I'm just trying to wrap my head around Tekken 5: Dark Resurrection. The game is just a bit too tough for me to master...

Keeping My Holy Week Holy...

.:Today's LSS:.

I just wanna be cool with you again...

Cool With You
by Jennifer Love Hewitt

Late last night
I was goin through some old things
When i Saw a picture of you and my best friend
It reminded me of day when you were mine
You had a way that always let me hear with a smile
I want those sweet days back agian
Cause baby

Chorus:
It's a sunny day
But you're not around
That doggone rain might as well be pouring down
Its such a shame
'Cause my heart's on the ground
Just wanna be cool with you again

Sometimes I sit by the fire and reminisce
About the time we spent in front of it
And that old flame will never be the same
Until you come back and rekindle it
I just wanna share my heart with you again
'Cause baby...

(Chorus)

I fall asleep at night
And often see you here
In my dreams
Holding me
But then I wake up and I realize that you're
Not here with me
It hurts so much
I gotta have you back baby...

(Chorus x2)

.:Congratulations...:.

My brother graduated yesterday. He'll be studying in La Salle for college.

More power to him...

.:I Miss You So Much...:.

You know who you are. I haven't seen hide nor hair of you for a long time, and I can't help but feel bad that you, despite all your claims of "never leaving me", wouldn't so much as make your presence felt to me.

So much for promises. I really should stop banking on anything you say from now on. You never came through on any of them.

And this is the point where I beg you to please prove me wrong.

Here We Go Again....

.:Today's LSS:.

Oh, look. It's the so-so band.

Stay
by Cueshe

I believe
We shouldn’t let the moment pass us by
Life’s too short
We shouldn’t wait for the water to run dry

Think about it
Cause we only have one shot at destiny
All I’m asking
Could it possibly be you & me?

So if you’d still go, I’ll understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to?
And if you’ll stay, I’ll hold your hand
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you

Time has come
For us to go, our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today

I feel so cold
Feel so numb I’m having nightmares but I’m awake
Help me Lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away

Now that you’re gone, I’m all alone
I’m still hoping that you would come back home
Don’t care how long, but I’m willing to wait
Cause I’m truly, madly, crazily in love with you

.:Despedida:.

Well, a friend of mine, Jeff, is leaving for Dumaguete soon. He's going to be working for about six months there, which kinda cuts down on the Vintage Magic community.

Oh, well.

In any case, it was fun seeing him and some of my other Magic friends on his Bon Voyage party last Wednesday. It was really enjoyable, to say the least, hanging out with them and talking about random stuff like how old Mondu really is...

Of course, it's equally amusing how Rachel, Jeff's girlfriend, was ribbing me about certain things, though. But I'll pass. I guess it was a way to make light of something that has been heavy to me lately...

.:Technically Another Despedida:.

Well, Mr. Dave Brown is back in Japan by now, but not before Tita Harvey and a good chunk of the JGL had a nightcap over at Max Brenner in Greenbelt. Nothing much there, really. It was just a good time to hang around with people, and it was particularly amusing how Charo kept on insisting she was that innocent-looking girl on her camera phone. It must've been her good twin sister. Lol.

.:Off Her Rocker:.

"You know what? Martial Law wasn't as this bad. At least, we still had some measure of freedom."

- Former President Corazon Aquino, comparing Martial Law to the current political situation in the country,


Who in Hades is she kidding? Can you believe this woman? She is hovering dangerously close of wishing Martial Law over what we currently have!

My, my, my. How soon people forget...

.:The Ultimate Massage Parlor:.

Walking along Cubao, I saw this massage parlor...

MANHUNT MASSAGE

Waitaminute... what kind of a place calls itself "Manhunt Massage"?

I must do... err... research to find out.

Nothing Good Has Been Happening In My Life Lately...

.:Today's LSS:.

It's a Waveback Wednesday...

Why Can't It Be?
by Rannie Raymundo

You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong
'Cause I'm not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning

CHORUS:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me

Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours but only
Till I wake up

(Repeat CHORUS)

.:Must... Return... Book...:.

I still owe Grace her book, and I've been meaning to give it back to her for a while already. Unfortunately, my work schedule prevents me from going to her school to drop it off.

In any case, I hope she can wait until Saturday, as I can pass by her house to leave it by then. Afterwards, I guess we can go back to our separate lives, although making a call to her this morning and having her uncle pick up the phone on me kinda threw me in a loop.

I can't believe how wonderful her family was to me. That family would simply have made for the best in-laws any human being can possibly hope for.

Oh, well.

.:Burdened:.

I actually want to buy a new phone. To be honest, I need a new phone. My old one is currently all decrepit, and is even refusing to give me a signal at this point. I haven't been able to call or text anyone for around two days now.

But you see, I can't buy a phone.

I don't have the money for it.

I really hate what's going on with my life right now. I'm stuck in financial dire straits, which is pretty much the thanks I get for grinning and bearing it with WAVE for almost two years. I'm beginning to think that maybe I really should just send myself into advertising already, because WAVE has not shown me the kind of appreciation I feel I deserve from having worked this hard for them.

It feels really bad, because I don't think waiting for an opportunity is a possibility anymore, what with time going against me at this point. I have to make something of myself in two years. I have a lot to prove. I have a lot of hurdles and hoops I have to go through before I can even begin to wind down. Hope springs eternal, and it is currently the one thing that keeps me from going off the edge.

My life is a mess. I've never found myself more depressed, as everything just comes crumbling down in a horrid, merciless chain reaction. My health, my work, my personal life, all of them just haunt me with a vengeance.

If this is what karma is all about, then I couldn't possibly say I don't deserve it.

Despite that, it still hurts that the one whom I would turn to for consolation would turn out to be the jumpstarter of this tempest I'm going through now. It's turning into a chore to just write a single blog entry at this point, but it's the only thing I can keep doing to will myself to sanity.

I will keep on keeping on. I will try my best to make lemonade out of the lemons I'm being given lately, but sometimes, the pain just gets too much to bear.

I can't believe I'm like this. I want to regain control. I want to take charge of where my life's headed again. But I feel too much responsibility at this point. At the risk of my own happiness, I cannot let a life just go to waste.

An unexamined life is not worth living, and that's precisely where my Burden is headed right now. It scares me that way. If this will be the one thing I accomplish in my Burden's life, it would well be worth sacrificing my happiness...

I just pray that this sacrifice won't go unnoticed by those whom I make this sacrifice for... otherwise, it would all be for naught, as it means that they will never learn...

Sigh... More Sighing...

.:Today's LSS:.

I know a male artist did this originally. Who was it?

I Need You Back
by Lea Salonga

If I had shown what you really meant to me
Maybe then you'd still be a part of me
I was wrong not to let you know
This feeling that's hard for me to show

Since you've gone I've always been alone
Feeling down and sorry for myself
I look at your picture and there I find
I won't make it through another rain
Without your sunshine

I need you back...
I need you here to guide me
Please come back
You're the only one who's ever loved me
I need you back
Let's start all over again
Share the love you had for me then

Since I've said what I came here to say
Guess I'd better be going on my way
But before I go I just got to let you know
You're the only one who can make me happy again

I need you back...
I need you here to guide me
Please come back
You're the only one who's ever loved me
I need you back
Let's start all over again
Share the love you had for me then
Share the love you had for me then...

.:John Cena, the Flasher:.

I'd love to post the picture myself, but it's on the WWE website, and you know they make sure you can't rip pictures from there...

So just go HERE, and check picture number 88. Tell me if I'm wrong. Go ahead.

.:Argghhh...:.

After doing some calculations, I discovered today, much to my chagrin, that I actually don't end up saving much money in any given month because of my daily expenses.

If you tally all of that in, I need ventures outside my current job for me to be able to live decently and save enough money for anything at all. Sigh...

.:Still Sick:.

My sore throat is still there, unfortunately.

That's not good news, and I can't afford medicine anymore.

Sigh. I've been spending way too much, and now, medical costs have just been hurting me even more while I'm at it.

.:Gaff:.

Tried to go and meet someone yesterday. Then I found out that she wasn't going out of the building from where I was waiting for her. Ended up wasting my time.

.:Proxy Tournament:.

Well, Grim Long was kind to me, and I won thanks to it. I think the deck is really solid, although my problem with it is the Stax matchup is still an uphill battle, and I wouldn't be surprised if that's precisely what I run into all the time.

That being said, I commented for the most part that my main problem with these tournaments is that players just walk in without prior testing and expect to do well. Doesn't follow, and only debunks the argument that "players need power to win". They also need a lot of their wits about them, at the same time.

Sigh... so many things to think about, so little time...

.:Today's LSS:.

Sure, it's from the female point of view, but I can really commiserate.

Funny how the best LSS's come to me when it really hits me hard in the gut.

I wish I wasn't in love with you so you couldn't hurt me.

I Wish I Wasn't
by Heather Headley

I’m home alone again
And you’re out, hanging with your friends
So you say, but I know it’s not quite that way
It’s getting pretty late and you haven’t checked on me all day
When I called you didn’t answer
Now I’m feeling like you’re ignoring me

Refrain:
I wish that you were home
Holding me,tight in your arms
And I wish, I could go back
To the day before we met and skip my regret

Chorus:
I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So you couldn’t hurt me
It just ain’t fair the way you treat me
No you don’t deserve me
Wasted my time thinking about you and you ain’t never gone change
I wish I wasn’t in love with you
So I wouldn’t feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forget
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you thats why I’m so mad
Now I’m drowning in disappointment, and it’s hard for me to even look at you

(Repeat Refrain)

Bridge
Said you care about me, but from what I see
I ain’t feeling that, so I disagree
Gave you all my love and understanding and you treated me like your enemy
So leave me alone, don’t want nothing from you
Just go back where you came from this house is no longer your home
You can not never come no more

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

I hear you knocking at my door again
I’m wondering should I let you in
I open up the door and see the flowers for me so beautiful in your hands
You start begging me to take you back,
I’ve always been a sucker for romance
And before you know it I can see, you’re all over me
Oh no here I go again

I wish I wasn’t in love with you so you couldn’t hurt me...


.:No Jokes Today:.

I'm in no particular mood to play tricks on people, to be frank. I've been deceived too many times in recent weeks, and I wouldn't want to subject people to more of the same.

.:1@5:.

Fifth anniversary party for WAVE, and it was the last time South Border would be performing in the Philippines for a while, as they're leaving for the States. I do believe they have a foreign outfit who took them in or something.

This is definitely good news for them, and I hope they do well. Wonder how their ex-lead vocalists feel about missing out on such an opportunity, though? Luke Mejares was actually our first performer for the program, even...

Nonetheless, it was just sad that their performance got cut short because the speakers just died on them. It was too bad, since the crowd was sooooo hyped for them.

It was too bad...

.:Don't Patronize Me:.

If all you could tell me is that "it was meaningless, to begin with", I'd rather not hear it.

Nothing about it was meaningless to me. In fact, it meant the world to me.

Don't patronize me. Don't tell me you feel sorry for me when you keep on hurting me at the same time.

Don't tell me that I'll get over it, either. Nine years of experience of never getting over something without closure (A closure denied.) says you're dead wrong.

Don't patronize me and pretend I'll just move on and find someone next week. I'm not that kind of a person. Nor do I intend to ever be one like that.