Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I Saw Music And Lyrics Again...

.:I Love This Movie:.

Music and Lyrics soooo describes my Beloved and I, in a nutshell. Of course, I'm nowhere near as hot as Hugh Grant, but let's not get the facts get in the way of an interesting analogy...

I'll let this Lyrically Speaking Scribble explain how I feel about the film, I guess.

.:Way Back Into Love: Lyrically Speaking Scribbles, Part X:.

Way Back Into Love
by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed...

Sometimes, it feels so difficult when I think about the things I've gone through in the past. I had a lot of fears. I doubt myself and second guess everything I do, to the point that I would even question if I deserve to be happy.

I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on...

It's hard to forgive myself for my failures and shortcomings. It's hard to break out of my shell for fear that I'd repeat the same mistakes again. But I realized I had to. If only to be fair to myself, I had to give myself a chance to prove that I'm not just a mistake.

Sometimes, I still worry that I haven't been able to achieve that... but I keep on keeping on.

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday...

I want this to work. That someday has been here, and I can't keep on dwelling on my failures and tripping over myself every single time. There's too much at stake, and we have the rest of our lives to look forward to.

I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind...

I need the silence. I need to break away from dwelling on the past and letting it overshadow the wonderful things I have right now. I need to understand that not everything I want, I can get, and I have to let go of loose ends because there are far more important things in my life now.

It was what it was. But this is what it is.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere...

Sometimes, one has to take a chance to break the cycle. It's easy to continue being mired in the skeletons in the closet, but what good does this ever really achieve? It's time to break free.

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions...

That someone is here in my life, finally. Someone who has given me meaning once again. I can't thank my Beloved enough for being there for me when I needed her the most.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel...

With each passing day, I do wonder if all of this is a dream. As a certain song goes, it feels like Christmas in June. It's all been unbelievable for me, and everytime I wake up, I ask myself... what the Hades did I do right for her to love me like this?

I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation...

I don't want to lose what I have now...

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love...

I want to move beyond everything that's been holding me back for the longest time. I want to break free and be happy after being miserable for the longest time. I've opened my heart and made my leap. I don't want to end up regretting it.

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end...

When I give my heart, I give my all. I hope that I'd never be a failure again.

I just can't take falling flat on my face again anymore...

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