.:Maybe Next Time:.

Too many things swirling around in my head today. I'll put off blogging untli maybe tomorrow... I'm sorry. I just am too weighed down by immense joy and immense sadness at the same time to think as clearly as I would've wanted to...

On the plus side, Grace and I managed to meet up on our monthsary last night... I guess that really picked up my day from the dismal that it was turning out to be towards the end... but I can't talk much about why it was a dismal day to begin with. I don't want to betray someone's weaknesses in public...

Lots of new poems/short stories in mind for me to write eventually... ah, well.

And my mom believes I have more chemistry with JDa than Anne... of course, that's mostly a matter of opinion...

.:Song Of The Moment:.

I heard this over today's Monster Riot... I guess it just hit me hard, considering it's the girl's point of view... I guess this song still has its magic for me. And for the record, Lisa Loeb in glasses? Rowr.

Stay
by Lisa Loeb

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.

And I thought what I felt was simple,
And I thought that I don't belong,
And now that I am leaving,
Now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
Or to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
And this woman was singing my song:
The lover's in love, and the other's run away,
The lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.

Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
Dying since the day they were born.
Well, this is not that:
I think that I'm throwing but I'm thrown.

And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
But that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that I was naive,
And I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey I can leave, I can leave."
But now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.

You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know
You're just scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."

You say I only hear what I want to.